i’ve been mistaking alone time for time with my self. though they may collide, they are not the same.
i wonder if this is what made developing my e-course so grounding. not only was i exploring my own ideas and diving deep into my inner world, i was also, less poetically, editing videos of myself. this was time spent with my self, witnessing my self, listening to myself, engaging with my self. if i never sell this e-course to another person, the process itself was worth it, to know myself more, to letting go of the hate for my own voice, my own image in motion.
it was healing to make this e-course.
i consider the other things that have felt healing in the last few months:
daily morning dog walks which i have taken ownership of, instead of having my partner and i alternate
examining and watering our vegetable plants every day, watching them grow
listening to spiritual/thoughtful/reflective podcasts
journaling
camping, being out of reach, enjoying the sky, the water, my first real “sparkle"” of fireflies float through our campsite…
i could make the argument that most of these healing happenings were perhaps so, because they were conducive to time spent with my self. i’ve learned this is something i need. and my parallel discovery? that i actually enjoy my own company.
this wasn’t true before, and WOW what it says about pushing pushing pushing and easing easing easing past and through and into who i am, who i want to be, who i constantly become.
where do you go in order to spend time with your self?
i am finally doing another one-off collage workshop online! it was meant to be an in-person workshop but unfortunately the venue had to cancel. but this means friends from ALL over can gather and join us!
Everything is a Playground - next Sunday, July 9th, 2023. from 1-3pm EST
there is a sliding scale for payment, and you can sign up here!
!!!!!!PLUS!!!!!!
if you’ve been thinking about signing up for the AOYIW e-course, if you do so between now and Sunday, you can join the workshop for free to wet your toes, to warm up, to set the tone for your self-directed learning!
FOR YOU: a digital collage pack :)
How to use: download the pack .png HERE
Print it, open it up in photoshop or another platform of your choice, combine it with your own goodies in whatever way makes sense for you! please feel free to show me what you make with it!
hugs,
katia